Why I Sometimes Leave Tech Events Feeling Smaller
TL;DR
The author feels smaller after tech events due to fast-paced, jargon-heavy conversations that reward fluency over understanding. They advocate for beginner-friendly spaces that allow simple questions and honest admissions of not knowing. The goal is to learn how to be authentic in technical environments without shrinking oneself.
Key Takeaways
- •Tech events can make beginners feel inadequate due to jargon-heavy, fast-paced conversations that assume prior knowledge.
- •The pressure to perform and sound fluent can discourage asking questions and lead to carrying confusion home.
- •True understanding is often demonstrated through clear explanations, not dense terminology.
- •Beginner-friendly spaces should allow room to slow down, ask simple questions, and admit not knowing without stigma.
- •Personal growth involves learning to be authentic in technical spaces without shrinking oneself or prioritizing appearance over understanding.
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I haven’t attended many developer events.
The few I have attended left me with a strange aftertaste. Not because anyone was rude. Not because the events were poorly run. But because I often walked out feeling smaller than when I walked in.
On paper, these are exactly the spaces I should enjoy. People building things. Talking about tools. Sharing ideas. Learning together. In practice, I’ve often felt out of place in ways I couldn’t immediately explain.
Yes, part of it is fear of being judged. Yes, part of it is feeling like I’m not good enough yet. But those feelings don’t come from not caring or not trying. They come from how a lot of technical conversations are shaped.
Many discussions move fast. Acronyms stack up. Context is assumed. If you don’t already speak the language fluently, you can fall behind quickly, even if you understand the underlying ideas.
That gap is subtle, but it’s real. And when you’re still building confidence, it can quietly turn curiosity into hesitation.
What I’ve noticed isn’t exclusion. It’s something quieter. Many spaces naturally reward performance. How fluent you sound. How confidently you drop terms. How quickly you signal that you belong.
That works well for people who are already comfortable. For people earlier in their journey, it can feel like you’re trying to keep up with the tone of the room as much as the content.
Over time, that changes how you show up. You ask fewer questions. You nod more. You carry confusion home instead of voicing it. Not because you don’t care, but because you don’t want to slow things down or look behind.
One thing I’ve learned on my own is this: how someone communicates is often mistaken for how much they understand.
Dense language can sound smart. Simple explanations can sound naive. But in my experience, the people who truly understand something can usually explain it clearly, without hiding behind terminology.
That’s the kind of engineer I want to become. Not the one who sounds impressive. The one who makes things easier to understand.
None of this means tech events are bad. They matter. They bring people together. They expose you to ideas and people you might not find on your own.
And I know many people in these rooms are generous and happy to explain things one-on-one.
My hesitation isn’t about rejecting them. It’s about learning how to show up in spaces that weren’t designed specifically for where I am yet.
Beginner-friendly doesn’t just mean allowing beginners in. It means creating room to slow down, to ask simple questions, and to say “I don’t know yet” without it feeling like a liability.
That’s how communities actually grow.
Instead of avoiding these spaces, I’m trying to change how I interpret them. Not as rooms I need to prove myself in, but as rooms I can learn how to be myself in.
That means asking the question even if it feels basic. Admitting when I don’t follow something. Choosing understanding over appearance.
I’m still learning how to do that.
If anything, I’m realizing that part of growing as a developer isn’t just learning tools. It’s learning how to exist in technical spaces without shrinking yourself.
I don’t want tech events to feel smaller. I want them to feel wider. Wider in language. Wider in patience. Wider in who feels like they belong.
I’ll keep showing up. Not because I’ve figured it out. But because I want to learn how to be in those rooms without losing clarity or curiosity along the way.
If you’ve been through this phase, I’d genuinely love to hear what helped you. How did you learn to show up in these spaces without either performing or disappearing?